The Last Chat?

Okay, I've finally done with my finals, killed one paper on last Friday and another one on Tuesday. Seeing that I've already done the best I could, I can now RIP (jkjk). Though I have no regrets, I don't really have confidence that I would get what I've been hoping for. Anyway, there's nothing else for me to do already, let's just wait and see what result would I be getting after, 2-3 months from now? Sigh.. I'm killing my time now blogging instead. As the title suggests, I'm not sure if there is a chance for us to catch-up in the future, thus I find it a need to at least TRY to remember some conversations that we shared. 

This post involves three persons whom I mentioned in my previous post:

Part I: TL

Part II: DC

Part III: Sky

Part I: TL

I was kind of down right after my finance paper in the morning. Ya, I was one of them who had the highest course-work marks, yet I wasn't confident enough to score an A for this paper. I scored the second highest in course-work marks too for my Marketing last semester, but I ended up with a B+. So I guess, I kinda have some phobia now, afraid that my performance during the 2hr10min duration wasn't good enough to achieve what I've been aiming for. When I received a SMS from him, which suggested to meet up right after my paper, I really wasn't in any mood to meet anyone. It was thus postponed to 3pm.

Our initial plan was to go for Tutti Fruity (ya, he owed me that). When we arrived, the yogurt machines were undergoing some maintenance which would probably end one-and-a-half hour later. He suggested some other places to hangout, including Baskin-Robbin, Alamanda and Ice-Room. I opted for the last one because it's the nearest and, he had to leave by 6pm. I ordered some peanut-flavour shaved-ice while he ordered a pot of Jasmine tea.

Sorry, my photography skill sucks.

The conversation started off as that of an informal interview, whereby, I asked him questions and he answered me. The scope basically covered his internship and his current relationship with his GF, MT. Well, as he promised to tell me everything I wish to know, means, I have all the right to ask anything I want! XD So, I quickly pulled out my notebook and got myself ready to write what he was going to say. 

First of all, his internship. His resumes had been sent out to ten companies and all ten of them offer him a position, some of which want him to work as a permanent staff. These ten companies, ranging from diversified conglomerates, accounting firms, companies from automobile industry, electronic industry as well as FMCG (Fast Moving Consumer Goods) industry, offer him a monthly salary of MYR 600 to MYR 10, 000. It sounds insane right? Tell me 'bout it. I've always known him as an outstanding and outspoken person who is capable of performing beyond expectations despite of the adverse stress and environment. Thus, I wasn't surprised, neither did I gulp, I nodded and jotted down on my note book because, deep down inside, I know he does deserve the salary offered. However, he didn't choose any one of them, he chose to work for INTI parent's company instead. His reasoning was, "They pay me too much, I want lesser." See how "sarcastic" he is?

So, I went on and "interrogated" him about his GF, MT. She had a crush on him when she was in Form 2 (she is three years younger than him). Both of them experienced two break-ups and thus, both have a common goal, not to hurt anyone and don't want to be hurt. Since last year May, they have been chatting with one another to "test-the-water" and one year later, which was two months back, they officially engaged in a relationship. He told me how she surprised him with two birthday celebrations and how he surprised her on her birthday. Though he told me quite a lot of things about her, I find three things which I failed to understand.

(i) He said they had been "testing-the-water" since last year. Why did he still "flirt" with me last semester as if he "intended" to salvage the so-called "relationship" then? If you are "testing-the-water", doesn't it mean that, you are interested on that person, wish to know more about that person thus proceed to "testing-the-water"? Since he was already halfway testing-the-water, why did he come and mess up with me? Fine, I admit, I was a bit indecisive that time, BUT nothing really happened okay? Everything is back to square-one now. (ii) He bought a super-duper-huge teddy bear for her birthday, which she named him as Tommy. It's exactly the same bear he bought me for my birthday last year, which I named him as Yuen Yuen. The only difference is that, T doesn't have a scarf around his neck but YY does. YY is under his custody now, means, whatever happened to him has nothing to do with me already. I actually asked him to give it to someone else but he didn't. Isn't it better to get rid of everything which would remind him of me? Yet, he rather spent another round of money to get a new bear. I know, giving current GF a gift returned by an "ex-GF" isn't really appropriate, but it does help to save the money right? (iii) I said, "I'm sure M is nothing like me right? Please tell me that, you don't see any of my shadow in her." His eyes gazed away, contemplated for a while, and said, "She is very much like the old you." I mean, c'mon, he dates a girl who resembles me? Why? Since he knows that "my-type" of girl is not suitable for him, why is he dating the same type of girl again? He went on and said, "Actually, she reminds me a lot of you." I was like, WTH?!!

What happened to guys nowadays? He is already in a relationship now with a GF, can't he be loyal to her? The moment when he said he still has feelings for me, I was like, "Does M know about it?" He said yes, and went on telling me what she told him about her principle on love. I mean, I don't care what principles they both holding to, the last thing I want, would be ruining others' relationship. He is my god-bro, of course he loves me and I understand that. But when he said he loves me more than a bro? Eh, that's too ridiculous! I have already got myself prepared to see this as our last conversation before he went off for internship. When he said he wishes to ask me out to chat again in the near future, I firmly rejected it. He should know the reason behind, okay? He reminds me of JC, who confessed to me when he is in, wait, I'm not sure is that a "testing-the-water" phase or an official relationship. C'mon, he is already in a relationship, what for asking "what-if"? He has a GF already, be loyal to her lar! I'm wondering, what has really happened to guys nowadays? Only when they are in a relationship/new relationship, will they realize that they have/still have feelings for another girl/ex-GF? Why can't they appreciate what they have now? If they really can't, what for engaging in a new relationship then? Here goes the saying, "Appreciate what you HAVE, until it makes you realized what you HAD."

I should have asked him on the spot right? But there is this thing with my brain that, whenever it comes to issues like these, it takes longer time to digest and analyse. Even my subjects, regardless theory parts or calculation parts also, it takes me relatively longer time to understand and apply. What more on personal matters which involve emotions and feelings? Sometimes, I really wish to upgrade my "processor" just so I wouldn't look like a dump when trying to figure things out (ya, I really do look like one when my face is blank, emotion-less and really into thinking of the reasoning). I really wish that whatever he told me, about his feelings for me and how MT reminds him of me and all, are just mere words which he made-up. Anyway, I guess guys nowadays are way too expert in multi-tasking between people already. They both have really enlightened me. Oh, some of you may think that my personal life sounds so messy and complicated and may even judge me. Just, judge all the way you want, okay? By all means, it's your right and I have no say in it. However, please bear in mind that, you are not me, you don't have a fair share of how did/do I really feel like. 

Part II: DC

He had been asking me out for dinner since last week, as in, before my Law paper but to no avail. However, seeing that this is his last semester here in INTI, I'll see it as some sort of simple farewell dinner then. Besides, look at the plus point, he promised to treat me for anything which I would order, no limits. Ha

So, we went to Aunty Aini's at 7pm, one of the famous restaurants in Nilai which offers mouth-watering food, including local and western food in her garden-like environment. I've been craving for rendang and would really like to try it out there (Note: Rendang is a type of Malay traditional food in gravy form). For your information, a British food-show hosted by Gordan Ramsay paid a visit there before to learn the recipe for rendang, and thus, I was so determined to try it. However, we arrived there only to find out that the restaurant has been fully occupied. Is it because of Ramadhan, thats why more people than ever went there to "buka puasa"? (Note: It means Muslims are now allowed to eat after fasting for one day) Or is it because of the TV show that the restaurant is now more famous than ever? Ishh

Link: Gordon Ramsay gets schooled by Malaysian aunty

We had to change our plan and went to Windmill. I ordered an ordinary chicken chop with black pepper sauce while he ordered some beef steak (if not mistaken), a bowl of mushroom soup and a lemon tea. While waiting for the food, the conversation started. At first, he was kind of shy to ask me about my personal life. Not what you think, okay. It wasn't much on my relationship but rather more of a friendship kind of talk. May be he thought that I would be reluctant to share my story with him that's why he didn't know how to actually start asking me? Though it started off pretty awkward, things were going on fine after.

He was curious on my friendship with my usual gang of friends. He knows about them, I mean, I had been with my gang ever since degree-year-one. Only from this semester onward, everything doesn't really seemed like making sense to him. He went on retrospecting from the beginning of the semester, how I took the initiative to talk to him on the first day of class, chose to sit with him on the second row in the class throughout the semester, how I "abandoned" one of my "ex-gang friend" to join his group for the group assignment and all. He wanted to know, what had really happened actually. Taken in a deep breath, I answered him, "道不同，不相为谋". It basically means, two men with different way of life can't get along.

This particular gang that I used to join, their way of life is different. How should I put it? Hmm, to them, they see this final year as something to behold in the future. When all of us graduated, it would be difficult to catch up seeing that everyone would be pursuing their dreams in different part of the country/world. So, their thinking is that, they should make full use of the time left to create memories. They went to hangout at places with great food, chatting, bonding and taking photos, stick with one another almost all the time, as if they will never meet again after our graduation. To me, final year is the only last chance to salvage whatever left, is the critical stage to do whatever I could to get what I want. I know my weaknesses, one of which is time management skills. If I were to join them for all the "food-trips", there is a huge possibility to flunk my studies, which is the last thing I want now. I'm not saying that bonding with friends ain't important, I'm saying that, it's not my current top priority. A wise man once said, "Time management is not really about managing time, its about managing your priorities". And I've never been clearer what my priority is at this moment.

There is this course mate named MY, a "banana" (Note: We call a Chinese banana when he/she can't speak mandarin) who is a year elder than me. She is a brilliant student who always scores among the highest for almost every subject. That's why more and more people starting to flock around her, in hopes to either improve their English or to catch up their course-work marks. Whenever there is a group assignment, the group members will always make her the group leader. I had been in the same group with her for some group assignments back then. But when I realize that, she will always be the group leader, I started to feel differently. I mean, everyone deserves to be the group leader, right? Everyone deserves to have the chance to train up their leadership skills, aren't I right? Why is she the one always gets to be the leader? Just because she scores higher marks, that's why making her the leader symbolizes higher possibility to score high marks for assignments? Frankly speaking, what I felt, was some kind of unfair treatment. Not that I was jealous or something. It has absolutely nothing to do with jealousy, its just that, I'm not a person who succumbs to whatever situation/environment that I don't find it in my favour. For that, I made a drastic move.

Last semester, I was the group leader for International Marketing assignment. I joined one of my seniors whom I added in FB (but didn't really chat before) and two of his friends. I would say, all there of them were kind of a stranger to me because, I didn't know anything about them. But you know what? Our assignment got the highest in the class. For my International Trade Law this semester, I had TL and this senior, MJ with me. MJ was determined to group with me because he admires my leadership, he wants to score for the course work as well. And you know what? Our assignment scored the highest as well, the only assignment which scored A. As for my friend, MY, her group assignment which consisted of four members (one member more than mine), scored only 66. I'm not saying that assignment without me as the leader can't score. I wasn't the group leader for my International Trade Finance (ITF) assignment, but we managed to score an A for it too. See? What I'm saying here is, everyone deserves a chance to follow, as well as to lead. No one shall forever be a follower, that's what I learnt from my IFT group leader. From my opinion, the success of leadership depends on the cooperation from the group members as well, especially their attitude towards accomplishing the tasks assigned. I'm glad that I have awesome group members who showed adequate, and at times, extraordinarily high degree of commitment as well as responsibility. It's indeed my pleasure to be able to work with different kind of people and had them in my group. :)

After I've done with my part of the "justifications" for my recent so-called "not-making-sense" behaviour, he had his fair share of the conversation. He told me a lot about Jack The Ripper (JTR), some maniac series killer back in the 1800's. He has this kind of interest in searching for places "worth visiting", all of which are those horror places. He said, he wants to visit all the places where the victims of JTR were murdered. He went on and described me eight victims of JTR, their names, where were they murdered and HOW were they murdered. According to him, JTR usually pulled out their insides, such as liver, lungs, and especially large intestines from the victims, either put at the side, as in nicely arranged, or brought them with him (I guess), because when police arrived, their couldn't find their insides. JTR had this exquisite talent in cutting out the visceral organ in no time, exactly precise to their shapes, and, peeling off their skin from neck to toes are nothing worth to be surprised. Besides, JTR, he talked about Ireland, about this particular place where the church buried the bodies. It looks like some kind of dungeon, but the interesting part is that, though all the bodies buried were not in coffins, they don't smell. There isn't any air-ventilation machine or anything, no matter how the bodies decomposing, you can't smell anything, which you usually do, over the dead corpses. So yeah, this is one of the places that he wishes to visit. *freaky wey*

Well, when I go for lunch or dinner with my friends, it usually takes one, or one-and-a-half hours to be the most, but this? We were there for two hours. Haha. Really enjoyed the stories that he shared with me.

Part III: Sky

He came back yesterday to collect his graduation gown for his convocation which will be held on this Sunday. I know I wouldn't be able to make it to his convo, so I insisted to have lunch with him. It seems like forever since we last talked. He has been working for his father and always has no time to chat with me over FB. Thus, we had a lot to talk about over lunch.

Unlike my two previous conversations, this one sounds more like talking about life. Few days back, I shared a post on his FB wall, regarding working in Singapore. Because I heard that he was planning to work there, so I kinda wanted to hear his opinion on this. Who knows, he questioned me instead and said, "Eh, its not easy for me to be determined to go there okay? Why are you sharing this with me? You made me hesitated about my decision now." I was like, "It's not that I intend to influence your decision, sharing is caring what. Just wanted you to think properly only, nothing much." If you are curious what has being written in the post, you may click on the link below (but its a Chinese passage).

Link: Is it a good choice to work in Singapore?

Basically, I kind of repeated what I told DC the other day, when he asked me how is my life going on. But this time was different, instead of plain sharing, I questioned him my doubts. I mean, ya, the reason why I couldn't get along with my usual gang is because we have different way of life, our thinking is different, our life plan is different. But what I'm curious about is that, they are my peers, aren't they going through what I've been going through all these while? Didn't they question themselves before, what does our life mean, what is the purpose of our life, what do we want to do to leave an impact on others, who we wanna be and how we gonna achieve that and many many more. I mean, our lives can't be just meant for studying, working, eat, work and sleep right? It gonna be more than that right? 

Actually, I kinda envious one of my friends back in foundation. It was a business class, and the chapter discussed about vision, mission, goal and objective. The lecturer said, instead of following the syllabus and discuss about corporates' vision and all, why not we talked about ours? She asked all of us to think about our life, what is our goal, what do we want to achieve in life. Of course, there were people who talked about their ambitions, be it being an accountant, broker, financial planner, some of whom talked about their dream to retire before the retirement age and all, which I would say, ya, all these sounded like goal of life. But there was this student, named Yeoh, who said, "When I died, I want people to remember me." I mean, okay, the answer was out of ordinary, it wasn't in any of our expectation, I would say. May be that wasn't really a goal of life, but more of a guideline towards being the person who he wants to be. It means, what should he do to leave an impact on others' life. Is it by sabotaging people, or by helping and motivating people? What kind of role is he playing in this world? We were only 18 back then, but his thinking has already far more mature than anyone of us, even the lecturer was surprised to hear him said so.

Though recently, especially in my final year of degree only I started to think about all these life issues, started questioning myself everything, my self-principle, my limits, my potentials, my interests, my directions and all, I would say, "late is always better than never". Though I started late, at least I've started. Sky looked unbelievable to see me talking about life, because all these while, he sees me as a little child, well, part of the reasons would be the way I behave, I guess. Because, I could be very childish and naive at times. But when I bombarded him about everything which has been bothering me, he said, "its easier said than done". Meaning to say, even you manage to develop your own life principles, then what? How do you know they worth holding on to? How do you know your so-called "principles" will bring you to greater heights instead of pulling your legs? You have not been to the world out there, you have been overly protected by your parents from exploring yourself, how do you know your principles will bring you good than bad? 

I would say, our conversation was relatively more mature than the previous two. He helps me think. Ya, probably because he is three years elder than me, what he has been through has certainly brought an impact to his life and his way of thinking. Being able to talk about such topic has really enlightened my view. Well, of course, he is not the only one who has been helping me all along the way. That's why, as what I've always said, I'll be forever grateful to have met them in my life. Well, let's put this aside first, I'm supposed to talk about my last chat with him. So yeah, only after my brain fused, we put the conversation to an end. Erm, he treated me lunch. Hehe. Then we went to Popular and bought some books. He bought the Chinese version of "The Five People You Meet in Heaven", while I bought myself two novels. Hopefully I could finish reading them during my semester break instead of watching dramas. Haha.

I said I wanted my head to look smaller,
so he is willing to be the "big-head-guy".. Haha..

Part IV: A Last Minute Thoughts

Ya, I never intended to write this but few days back, I read a post from my friend, the one who "challenged" me to have a blog of my own. And I realized, she was having some life issues too. I mean, its normal for people at our age to start thinking like an adult. Wait, we ARE an adult now, and that's why we have to start behaving like one, I guess. I commented on her post to motivate her. She is a bit like me, I used to be a negative person as well. But I'm not too sure what happened to me that I'm not very much the old me now. FYI, the old me afraid to be alone. I always hope that I'm surrounded by friends, eat together, sit together in the class, be in the same group for assignment and all. If my friends were lazy to go for some talks given by speakers from huge corporate, I wouldn't attend too. But the current me is different. If they don't, I will go alone. Why should I give them the power to influence my decision? This is my life and I will do what I want! Just because I'm alone, doesn't mean that I'm lonely. I know I have my family and a bunch of TRUE friends who have been there for me and always will. So, why should I care about what others see me as? Why should I follow others when I can pave my own path? 

My dear bestie, you need a dream and there is no need to follow others' footsteps. Do what you want and be who you wanna be. Nothing comes easy. Most importantly, be determined, think positive, have faith in yourself and never give up! We will go through this together. We will find out who we really wanna be in the future and thus, you are not alone! I hope what I said would be of help to you. Wishing you all the best, okay? Be strong! :)

'Till next post, cheers :D

Guys Whom I Crossed Path With

Warning!!

This post is extremely long. Are you ready? LOL~~~

Actually, my final exams start next Friday, International Trade Law on the 19th, and International Trade Finance on the 23rd. I ought to seize each and every second left, studying, memorizing and practicing the questions from past semesters paper. I shouldn't be writing this post of mine when it makes no sense for me to jeopardize my goals. Ya, I'm aiming for first class honour for my degree. My goal for this semester is to score As for both subjects. For this, I took the liberty to quarantine myself in the library to do notes, mind-maps, self-readings and more. My performance was, so far, up to my expectation, got As for both tests. Not that I want to brag, but it's really something to motivate me to go further. However, one of my friends had got me into thinking of the word "timing", and I started "swaying" away in my memory pool.

(Note: This is a very personal post of mine written in a chronological manner. Perceive it in any way you please. You may even wanna make guesses, at your own risk, that's it. LOL..)

In retrospect, there was this guy named KQ. I can't really remember how did we come to know each other, but I do remember that, he was one of the laziest students in my class. Whenever the teacher ran a spot-check on our homework, he would sure "kena" the caning. (Note: basically, it means, he got caned.) He was a very funny guy though, active in sport, especially basketball, and he looked so charming when he managed to score for the team. This could be one of the reasons why his homework was most of the time, if not every time, not being done? He was very humorous and he knows magic. Was this the reason why I had a crush on him back then? Haha. Well, pardon my naive-ness, I once wrote him a letter to confess my feelings for him. Ever since, he started to avoid me. Things got more awkward when I started to buy him some small gifts randomly, eg, a small note book, in hopes that he would jot down the homework and make effort to complete it? OMG, what was I thinking? I remember giving him a bookmark when we had a trip together to Kuching, written at the back "I Love You". Ahem! I was so childish, wasn't I? Wait, it wasn't a trip of two-of-us, it was a graduation trip after our UPSR, okay? (Note: UPSR is a government examination when we finished our primary education.) Hmm, though we now share a steady friendship, neither of us mentions anything happened in the past. Are we shy, or we merely refuse to talk about it?

Next, this guy named CY, my assistant class representative back in high school. I was a very talkative person back then, had a group of friends who like to sing, and would always sing in the class whenever there was no teacher around, formed a mini group who collected lyrics of variety of songs, mainly Chinese and English songs. One fine day, I received a SMS from a stranger, who proclaimed himself as CY. Though I had no idea where did he get my number from, I confirmed it with him personally the next day, and ever since, we started chatting. Things started to get weird when I heard one of his friends, let's call him A who told me that he had feelings for me. A did so because he wanted the mobile number of a friend of mine, and I said, I would only trade with you if you could tell me a secret. There, I started to "observe" the way CY texted me, and imagine him telling them with his tone of voice. Though I was skeptical about the "secret" his friend told me, I myself made a move to avoid him. Things got worse, when one of the most popular girls in our school, from next class, came over and "validate" the scandals. OMG, I was so shy and felt as if my reputation has gone! I started to warn him in hopes that all the gossips would stop. I think my pressuring was too much that ever since, we never talked to each other until today. Well, except for the time when I accidentally bumped into him with his GF, we "hi-bye" and that's it. Hmm.. He is quite a nice guy though.

Okay, there were these guys, which I have to relate them together, let's call them guy B and guy C. Guy B was one of the smartest students in my class, we had been in the same class for four years. I was kinda admiring him because, he wasn't just smart in terms of academic, his general knowledge was so wide that it impressed me. I like to hear him talked about world history, economics, politics, technology and all. His expertise would be on language. He has always enlightened my with his vocabulary in Hokkien, Tiew Chew, Hakka (all of which would means nothing new to you if you understood these Chinese dialects.), Japanese and Korean. He has in-depth research on how Japanese was influenced by Hokkien when Hokkien was one of the busiest commercial ports back then. Besides, he can speak fluent Korean, well, at least "sound" fluent to me, when he come-clean that, he made it up. Which means, if he were to speak Korean over the phone to you, you wouldn't have suspected that, the person speaking is not a Korean in the first place. On the other hand, guy C had been in the same class with me for five years, basically throughout my high school life. He is not much of a person with confidence, probably because he has been living in the shadow of his elder brother who always outshines him? Erm, I don't really know what to talk about him, but I have a feelings that he likes me. If you noticed, it's LIKES, present tense, see? LOL. Or perhaps my level of narcissism is just too high? (Actually, there is a chance that he might be reading this post too... Oops... )

This guy named FY, was the guy I admired in tuition. The first time I saw him, I was drown by his physical look. Not that he looks like price charming, I just didn't know why I got attracted in the first place. Then, I heard my friend said, he is an all-pointer achiever in her school. He was the Head of Police Cadet, the Head Prefect, and not to mention, his results was one of the top in the school! He was also the champion for NST Spell-It-Right Competition. I think I was lucky enough to know him through my friend, YL, and know more about him. His science and mathematical subjects are among the best, particularly chemistry, physics and additional mathematics. He always studies before he attends any classes. When we were in Form 4, he had already started studying physics in Diploma level. I still remember that, there was once when I couldn't understand what the teacher was teaching in the class and I sought for his help. After the tuition, he stayed back to teach me, he even lent me his Diploma physics text book to make sure that I understood what he was trying to explain. It was already half passed 10pm, but he didn't mind staying back to draw me all the diagrams and patiently explained it step-by-step. Well, to be frank, I think one of the reasons why he had to repeat it over-and-over again was not merely because the theory was difficult to understand, it was partly because, I couldn't concentrate when he was explaining. I mean, I literally "starred" at him, amazed by how perfect a person could be, the way he talks, and fascinated by his eyes. My heart was literally racing when we were sitting face-to-face, hopefully I didn't blush, or even if I did, I hope it was not noticeable. Haha..

JC is the one whom I met during my orientation in my university. He was one of the scholarship holders awarded for his leadership skills. I didn't know much about it though. He is very good in socializing. When I was in my first semester, I was so excited and joined four clubs. He surprised me when he told me that he joined five! He asked if I would be interested to learn Latin dance, I was like, "Wait, how did you know I was interested?" I mean, I was already thinking about it way before our conversation, it's odd that he knew what I was thinking, isn't it? Then we joined dance club together and he was my dance partner for a few sessions. After we completed the course, we recorded a video of us dancing Latin. Awwww.. When I chose French as one of the compulsory foreign languages, he was the one who tutored me and taught me extra vocabulary to support the lecturer's teaching. He was a member of squash club too, and we had a few matches before. And I have to say, he plays better than me. Hehe.. Few months back, he was supposed to come and look for me, whereby, I promised to show him around Klang, bring him for Bak Kut Teh (Note: Klang's famous cuisine), and probably have an ice-skating session together. However, both of us was quite depressed when our results released, so yeah, the plan was called-off. He was the one who got me into thinking of the word "timing" too. He confessed his feelings for me a few days back, "What if I confessed my feelings to you back then?" On my way to class yesterday, I saw him holding hands with his GF. Ahem XD

This friend of mine, named CH, I know him from a seminar. We didn't really talk much but we added each other in FB, as well as exchanging h/p numbers. I still remember vividly how he used to scold me when I seemed like one who doesn't know how to cross the road. He grabbed my arm and asked, "Hey, are you blind?" Well, this might sound rude to you but he wasn't asking it in a harsh way, he was just concern of my safety. Then, we went on chatting via FB-pm and found that, we have a lot of things in common. He is a fan of Robert Kiyosaki too, and we talked about our interest in business, economics, finance and so on, we even talked about our families and our lives. He has a degree in Financial Engineering, I have no idea how does Finance relate to Engineering in any way possible though. Ha. We used to chat almost everyday, from morning 'till night, after logging off FB, we would send SMS instead. I still remember how he used to call me before he sleeps. When I was rushing assignments and had to stay up late night, he always said, "How I wish I could be there to bring your sweater. Nah, I'll send your virtual coffee to help you stay awake instead then." That was the first time I came across with "virtual" stuff, and we started to use this word more than necessary. When he had running nose, I would say, "Nah, here's the virtual tissue". We were so close back then, too close to be true. He is 3-4 years elder than me, and we went for a movie once. I have no idea what happened or what did I do wrong that, we are no longer as close as before. I really wish to know the reason(s) behind~~

Next, there is this guy called TL, my classmate since foundation. We were acquaintances in the beginning, I heard of him from a friend of mine, he was the tallest guy among all, it's impossible for you to hear nothing about him. Who knows, on my first day of class, I found out that, he enrolled for the same program as me. He was in his formal, on the first glance, he looked like an uncle. Seriously! He looks too mature for our age. At first, I saw him as an arrogant person, bragging his experience on making his first million. Ya, it sounds insane, isn't it? But as time passes, I found him a nice guy to be with, friendly and always ready to help. If I'm not mistaken, I think we had done a group assignment back in foundation. He is tall, so was his GF. (Note: Not that she is no longer tall, just that, I'm not sure if she is still with him.) Few months before the course ended, he confessed his feelings for me. Erm, I didn't want to ruin other's relationship though. Seeing that I've been hoping to have an elder brother since the age of 14, my dream comes true the day he sees me as his god-sister. We started to get closer and more attached to each other until the day everything seemed to go rogue. A lot of people perceived our attachment as an engagement in a relationship, even I myself was convinced, partially I guess, that I was in one. But the lacking of sense of security, not the mention, the guilt that had been haunting me, was among the reasons we are back to square-one. Seeing that he has a new GF now, I do my best to avoid any possible interaction with him. The last thing I want in my life, is a guy who multi-tasks between people, particularly women.

SR, I get to know him from a club, called House of Commerce (HOC). The very primary reason I joined this club was because, my attention was caught by the word "Cash Flow Game" written on the promotional soft board. The chairperson said, the cash flow game would be commenced at least twice a month, whereby the game board introduced by Robert Kiyosaki would be used. OMG, I joined the club without any hesitation. On a separate note, I found the chairperson quite handsome actually. But when I attended their first general meeting, I saw him holding hands with his GF, who was the secretary of the club. Hmm, okay, I think it makes sense. Fine, I was supposed to talk about SR. Ya, we participated a 3D2N leadership training camp before. I was still quite new to the event organized by the student government and he was one of the few whom I knew among all the participants. So basically, we spent most of the time together whenever we were not engaged in any group activities. He enjoyed himself so much teasing me when he found out that I actually had an extremely huge appetite, my portion was of that for two persons. Ya, no joke. He passed me his food whenever he couldn't finish it. I'm not exaggerating okay. But rest assured, my appetite is now of an ordinary person's. Erm, SR actually "hinted" a few times about his feelings. He always initiated some intimate topics which I had no idea how to react, thus acting as if I had no idea what he was talking about. My blur face was among the "techniques" I used to avoid such awkward situations. Haha.

Hmm, I'm not making this up okay, this guy's name is really Sky. Not in the sense that his identification card written "Sky", but everyone calls him Sky. He once made a joke when I playfully asked for his suggestion what kind of nickname should I have, he said, "You may choose, cloud, sun, moon, rainbow and... I think rainbow suits you most. You are always so cheerful." Hehe, such a kind compliment I got from him. I know him from HOC too, but our interactions on the later stage were not much of any HOC-related events. We joined Astronomy Club too. Though both of us know nothing much about astrology, we enjoyed discussing about horoscope, staring into the sky and talked about the stars. He actually has some self-studies on Ying-Yang, and he knows some basics of fortune telling too. He once tried to analyze my personality and said, I'm still like young kids, not fully grown up yet, the way I behave, the way I think and the way I talk. He said, I have this kind of aura which will easily influence people around me and bring them joy. That's why, part of the reasons why he likes to hangout with me is that, he feels relax and happy each time I'm around. Even when I felt emo, my positive energy will always brush them away and up for the new challenges. He likes this side of me. He is my senior who graduated two semesters before me. There was once when I told him that I would probably looking for job in DHL, either somewhere in Cyberjaya or LCCT. He was kinda excited, or a little bit over-excited, I would say, and responded, "Hey, good to hear that wey. We could work in the same company then. I was thinking of DHL too." Ahem.. Well, I still don't know where I want to go yet~~

MH was the VP of Activities of Squash Club, and seriously, his skills are among the top. I know him through an event called "Squasherton-120", I was recruited under the sponsorship division. This event was aimed to be recorded into The Malaysian Book of Record, whereby, we invited players from everywhere, mainly players from our network as well as those who have been participated numerous friendly matches organized by various institutions. I can't really recall what was his position in the event, but he was one of the reasons I joined Squash Club as Treasurer. Haha. He is a very outspoken person, humorous and good in socializing. From the way he approaches people, you can easily tell that he has been socializing for quite some time. I can even bet that his dad is a businessman, who usually deals with countless social events. I admire him for the way he makes new friends. He can always initiate a new conversation with any random topics. He has nice rows of teeth. Fine, I realized the way I describe it isn't as appropriate as it should be. There were a few times in which, I tried to make it to his training session. In Squash Club, senior players, mainly those state players will be coaching the new members basic skills and rules in squash. But, I've always seen studies as my first priority, that's why from what I managed to recall, I failed to attend any of his session. What a shame, right? Tell me 'bout it.

BH, okay, I don't know how to start. Well, I was asked to join the Chinese Cultural Society (CCS) by one of my friends. I think I met him in the gathering night. He was invited to perform Diabolo (Note: A type of chinese yoyo) for the audience. The moment he went on stage, I was stunned by his skills. The way he flung the Diabolo up to the sky and managed to re-catch it gracefully, how he made sophisticated knots on the Diabolo and untied them in no time only to fling the Diabolo again. I love to see him solo on the stage, performing the incredibly breathtaking acts which only he alone knows how. Well, then I joined the Diabolo practice because of him. Haha. Every Wednesday 8pm, he would be there to teach us. His "sifu" was once an INTI student as well, and both of them were from the same high school, how small the world is eh? Diabolo is not something which the students could learn on a spoon-feeding basis. Whenever I failed to perform some particular acts, he would always say, "Never imitate, you must feel if for yourself". I like the way he teaches us, I mean me. Hehe. He is a very patient person, though I used to ask him quite a lot of silly questions, I never really made him mad before. I think he had a crush before back in high school, it has been around eight years but he seemed hasn't let go just yet. He had a GF too in Uni, but it lasted for a mere few months. A few weeks back, he came to visit us after he submitted his internship report. We had lunch together and I really enjoyed the time with him. He is a bio-chem/bio-mech (I'm not too sure though) engineering student, I gained so much knowledge on microbes the other day. I really adore knowledgeable person. And I owe him a meal too. Hehe :D

RL, a person whom I met during an event, Chinese Cultural Night (CCN). When it was towards the end of my foundation, a friend of mine asked me to join the event as an organizing committee, I was one of the Exhibition Crews and he was the Head of Program Master. It was my first time joining an event of such scale, which targets a minimum of 800 audiences. We have never talked before until the day I was on duty looking after the exhibition booth. We were selling some herbal eggs, Chrysanthemum tea, Siew Pau and all, thus staffs were needed to generate sales too. One fine day, he stopped by and started ranting about how dissatisfied he felt towards the Organizing Chairperson, the unfair treatment and all, I was just listening without giving any feed-backs or comments. When I heard he tendered a CCN event proposal for the following year, I was surprised that he looked for me to lend him a hand. He wanted me to be his VP, but I could only promise him a secretarial post because I never wanted to flunk my exams. As a secretary, I had to follow him around, be it site-seeing, attending meetings with the committees, some discussions regarding the formal documents to be submitted and so on. We were quite close back then, and I still owe him two Starbucks and he owes me a set of McD. When I was working on my own event, Leopoly, I sought for his help to be my Vice Organizing Chairperson, and he agreed. There, another event for us to work on, and we certainly had great times together, especially heading out to look for sponsors. Though I rejected his confession, we are still friends now, after all, we still owe each other F&B. lol

JP, he was the Head of Hall Master for my Leopoly event. RL was the one recruited him on behalf of me for his talent which would be of help for my event. He was actually one of the Hall Masters under CCN organized by RL, but he got promoted as the Head for my event. Ha. Indeed, he helped me a lot with the construction of the properties, consists of houses, shop-lots as well as sky-scrappers. I couldn't imagine what would the event be like if he wasn't there to help me out. As  a leader in a whole, I had to stay back with my Hall Masters when they were working out on the buildings, so had he. When everyone else had gone back after they done their job, it left me and him alone in the store room. While cutting, pasting, coloring, designing all the buildings, we would chat and joke at the same time. Some times, he even brought his net-book and played some songs, which I would say, the atmosphere was fantastic. It's nice to know that we both love the same genre of music, we both love Hitz.fm and we both love GOTCHA calls. When I shared with him some of the Gotcha calls I downloaded from the website, both of us burst out laughing. He recommended a few old movies starring Stephen Chow, and we spent time in the store room watching the movie from YouTube. It was such a memorable moment. We even spent the whole night together in the store room straight until the next morning. Ahem, nothing happened, okay? I think he is one or two years elder than me, that's why he treated me as some sort of sister? I remember how he brushed my hair when I was sleeping in the storeroom. Oops...

DC, my classmate for International Trade Finance. I'm not sure from where I know him, but I'm sure that I know him from an event. We added each other in FB but never really chat, when we bumped into each other, the most was hi-bye. Until previous semester, we had a small chat when he asked which subject I would be taking and which subjects left. For this semester, I'm actually taking subjects based on my own choice, for the first time, I'm not taking any subjects following any friends. I've got myself ready to be alone in the class, knowing that, no one to talk to will grant your brain full capacity to pay attention when the lecturer is teaching. Who knows, he is also taking this subject in this semester and we started talking and seemed more like "friend". We have always been sitting together in the second row, and we are also in the same team for group assignment. He gives me the impression that, he is stalking my FB. He confronted me a few times before, asking me what happened between me and my friends, why didn't I take the same subjects as them. I was like, "My dad pays for my study, I am the one deciding what subject I want to take. Why should I follow friends?" Doesn't it make sense? Besides, I think it's time to start being independent now, like what I've said before, no one would walk alongside you until the end except yourself. He asked me out a few times, he told me that he had a journals about me, as in, what he found out about me, what he knows about me and what is he curious about me. He wanted to go for a movie with me, which was totally fine by me, because I wanted to watch it too. But erm, to avoid awkward moment, I invited few of my friends to join along as well. He asked my opinion on whether or not he should go for his arm operation. I didn't say much though.

I think that's 'bout it, these are some of the guys whom I crossed path with. I mean, of course there are more, but these few are the ones whom I think I have something to write about, at the very least, that I have several pieces of memories about them. I'm kinda surprised when a person whose memories are too poor to memorize the easiest of formulas, could manage to recall the slightest of details. Though the tiniest bit of each events were not being mentioned, which I believe was due to the limitation of my brain's capacity, the overall picture will always be there, imprinted. For 21 years on earth, I suddenly find it a need to have a flashback on them, whom once appeared in my life, some of which are still in-touch, and some of which aren't. Nevertheless, people whom I met have made me who I am today. For that, I'm very grateful.

I believe in timing. Do you?

I wonder when would I have the free time to write such a long post again, not to mention, an everything-under-the-sun post. Hmm, anyway, I think I probably won't update my blog in anytime soon until I've done with my finals. OMG, I must really put more effort to get what I really want. Okay, no more slacking, back to work. Wait, I'll be meeting up a friend of mine who is going to fly off soon, so yeah, the entire Sunday will be gone. Work resumes on Monday, perhaps? Haha...

'Till next post, cheers :)

Minions!!

Have you heard of a movie titled Despicable Me? Have you watched Despicable Me 2? Oh my, if you haven't, you should probably get yourself a ticket! Everyone seems to be so crazy over the cute little minions that Mr Gru has. They are adorable and lovely! And the best thing? You can now get it with every purchase of Happy Meal from McDonald's!

Do you wish to collect them all? Hehe

With that, my friends and I went to McD yesterday around 10am or so, queued up for approximately half-an-hour to purchase it. As I wanted all three of them, I purchased three sets of Happy Meal alone. Crazy eh? Well, seeing that I have two little brothers, one minion for each of us sounds like a wise plan to avoid a fight-over among the siblings. You know, we are actually quite childish at times, brutal physical battles are nothing new. Oops...

You see, four of us got ourselves seven minions. Haha

Ya, I know, some of you might not be able to understand the reasons behind our craziness. You may say, "hey, they are just some marketing gimmicks okay? By producing them in bulks, in China, cost of production per units hardly exceeds 10₵, yet you are getting them at RM3 each?" FYI, before this, customers were allowed to purchase them without the need to purchase the Happy Meal. However, they noticed the loopholes and thus, when we went there yesterday, only with Happy Meal can you get the minions. Well, having no need to pay for over-priced minions, I certainly have no problems at all to get them for my brothers. :)

Yaya, I've got them. Don't get jealous ya! XD

After having our own sweet time at McD, we followed our plan and headed down to Seremban Jusco to watch Despicable Me 2. Actually we'd prefer to watch it right away and be able to come back as early as possible because some of my friends still have their assignments to rush for. However, we only managed to get tickets for 3.45pm show. Thus, for the time being, my friend, FY and I wandered around the mall for some window shopping. Erm, it wasn't quite a "window" shopping for my friend though, she has gotten herself some singlets and dresses actually. An hour before the show, we went to Row-Six (南洋轩) for lunch. 

My Tomyam Seafood Fried Rice :)

If you were to ask me to describe the movie in details, the story line, the funny sides of the minions and all, I'm sorry to say this but I won't do it for your sake. I mean, if you'd ask me would I recommend this movie to my friends, I would say yes. To me, I'll give a movie quite a low rating when I find myself flipping my mobile over and checking on the time, reluctantly keeping my ass attached to the seat until the movie ends and keep adjusting my sitting posture. I mean, not that the seat ain't comfortable, it's just some psychological effects, I guess. In Despecable Me 2, however, I found no sign of irritation throughout the length of time. In fact, they made my day! :)

The hours spent in the theater were full of joy brought by the minions, especially their un-understandable language (I mean, to us), how creative they are and how they make their work full of fun. One thing we may learn from the minions is that, humans are not bound with a dull life. We are always free to look for entertainment even in our work itself, look at Google! Generally speaking, there is a huge contrast between the Eastern and Western culture. Here, we tend to work our asses off to earn big money, avoid unnecessary expenses, save up for the next generation and all. That's why, we hardly have the chance to relax and enjoy our lives. Westerners, however, earn what they deserve and spend them for what they deserve too, travel around and get exposed! Not that we could bring all the wealth along with us when we pass away, am I right? I'm glad that some young generations from the East have started to change their mindset once imposed by their families. 

We headed back right after the movie. Well, I was actually hoping for more, you know, 1hr 45mins (rounded-off) just ain't enough! However, I would like to give a piece of an advice here. Please watch it without any expectation just because everyone else is saying how awesome the movie is. When your expectation has been raised due to comments or reviews from others, it would yield a lethal outcome and you would probably say this after you watched it, "Nah, not as awesome as it sounds to be. Everyone is just exaggerating about it." That's the reason why, I refuse to be a movie spoiler here. Hehe.

Well, just some videos here to share, some songs the minions sing. CUTE and FUNNY!! Argh... How I wish to have these minions too!! :D

Wait, under-wear?? LOL

They look adorable on their costumes, don't they??

Hope you enjoy. 'Till next post, cheers :D